Feeling Grateful

My dogs are laying at my feet. I had my 2 year old grandson here earlier from a sleepover and he is so good. I am so blessed. We lost his older brother a year ago and I am still numb about it. I don't think it has really hit me yet. He had just turned 2 and it was a little sudden. So time with this one is so important to me. Anyway, I am sober..no small thing from a raging alcoholic like me. I have the misfortune to live in the land of drive-thru daiquiri shops and that is a temptation I fight everyday. But today, I feel grateful. I am at choice today. When I was in my addiction, I had no choice..I had to drink and take sleeping pills. Today I do not. Freedom and choice mean different things to me now. Once upon a time, sleep was my enemy. It forever fought me. I could never just fall asleep without some chemical help. After a while even that didn't help. It was my nightmare. Today I can sleep without a thing. In fact, I am so sleepy right now and it is only 8:18PM. I haven't had a problem with sleep in almost 2 years since I went to treatment for my addictions. Thank God! Freedom. Exhaling and bliss in something as simple as a good night's rest. Life is good. I think I will curl up with a good book and three of the cutest dogs you ever did see.