Just that quick: my husband called me and asked if I could go get a wedding gift for one of his co-workers. He asked me my opinion on a good wine. Wellll...that is just up my alley. Right away I started naming some fine wine suggestions. He then asked if I would go pick one out. Immediately I said, "I would love to. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to go to my favorite wine store and peruse those beautiful bottles for that pinot noir. Then sanity came back, oh no! I can NOT do that!!! I called him right back and told him that I could not do that for him, that it was too slippery a slope. An THEN, my addiction was quick to point out by saying, "How dare he ask you to do that!!! What is wrong with him?!! He doesn't care about you!!!" Ahh, a resentment.."you should get a bottle for you too and drink it..yey..that will show him what a bad idea he had." I nibbled on that a bit. Thank God, I did not take that bait. Why on earth do I want to drink that poison and hope he dies? That is just stupid. Phewww. It is relentless. I then went to an afternoon AA meeting and heard some good stuff and stood next to a young man who reeked of alcohol, there was my dose of hope and my reminder. I was very glad I didn't drink today. For today: I win:)
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