The Psychic Change

For 2 years I had no idea what it was like to have a psychic change. That one needed in order to happy, joyous and free. I only knew that I hadn't had it yet. I was still fighting. Although I thought I was "working" it and then decided that I could do with an easier softer way that would suffice. It nearly killed me. I had to hit another bottom. When I saw where my alcoholism wanted me next, I had my psychic change, only I didn't know it at the time. When I went back and read my journal from the entry before and then after...there it was. It is very hard to describe and I sure fought it hard. But when I finally accepted defeat and surrendered psychically, I was changed. The program says, "don't quit before the miracle" and I am so glad I didn't. I am 3 days sober and happy.